As I’ve written this blog, I always intended to make Dave’s pancreatic cancer battle as truthful and in the moment as possible. Every so often Dave would sit and write. I’ve never put his writing up on this site. As I’ve started the project I’m working on, I’ve come across some of his words. This particular story was written in Dec of 2013. No edits, as is, raw and real.
I’ve considered how I wanted to write this post and this is the fourth time I started writing (the last one was deleted because I took too long writing). I meet with my Doctor at the beginning of each new round, so at the beginning of round three we met. He asked the usual question about how I’m doing and explained how my progress was up to this point (progressing as expected ). I had decided in advance to talk about longer term questions this time and not just generalities. You see, I spent a lot of time digging through the internet for long term prognosis for pancreatic cancer and found the statistics were not good even in the best of circumstances (this is the problem with the internet, it’s too easy too self diagnose). Now I should preface this by saying I’ve been lucky. They found it early and got out all they can find (I thank God and Liza every day for my life). I just needed to know more. The doctor confirmed my research that the survival rate for pancreatic cancer is low. Few make it to my stage and fewer make it past year two or through year five. Very few go into complete remission. The doctor said that the cancer being in my lymph nodes and not just the pancreas is the reason I’m still in the low statistics. It’s in my blood stream and that’s hard to kill (which is where the chemo comes in). I have as good a chance as any to beat the odds but it’s still going to be a lot of milestones to get past five years. As I said, I’ve been lucky (I got Liza so I must be lucky) so I believe I’ll beat it. However, I talked with Liza and we agreed that we shouldn’t get a house before we get past the first two years. At that point we can re-evaluate. That means keeping our stuff in storage longer than we first intended but that can’t be helped. Instead, we bought Bella a new bedroom set and a new love seat for the living room to fill things out in the apartment. Bella is very happy with what she got.
Rather than giving the blow by blow for the past three sessions (all of round three ) I’ll just summarize the time. The fatigue and joint pains are recurring themes for all of this time, particularly the weekends when I mostly sleep. The doctor said the effect is cumulative and will get worse with each round but will go away when the chemo is done.
Thanksgiving was nice with the three of us. Liza made turkey with all the fixings. She made Martha Stewart mashed potatoes (really good but you’ll have to ask Liza why.). Also home made Cranberry Sauce (very tasty).
It was my off week so I was doing somewhat better. Put up our new Christmas tree and lights on the balcony and shrubs.